MaryLovesLife Ministries, Inc.
The Ministry of

Mary L'Esperance Held

Connecting Humanity to the
Heart of the Matter:
Aligning Spirit, Soul & Body with Identity & Destiny

Acts 20:22-24
"And see, now I go bound in the spirit to Jerusalem, not knowing the things that will happen to me there, except that the Holy Spirit testifies in every city, saying that chains and tribulations await me. But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God."


As anyone who knew me 'back in the day' will remember, I loved to party. And I continued to well into my adult life. In spite of this, I managed to receive an Associate degree in Accounting. Once a working girl, it was a priority to plan frequent partying into my schedule. So not surprisingly, it was in a bar that I met the man I married.

We moved to Jacksonville, FL where we began climbing the corporate ladder and living the high life. Our determination for the material things of life and excessive night life did not give our personal relationship the priority it should have had and we drifted apart emotionally. I recall my mothers advice that we should go to church, but I refused her suggestion telling her it was the stupidest thing she could ever tell me. What could church do for me? I didn't need a crutch in my life. I didn't need to be like all those people who couldn't handle their lives. I could handle my own life (or so I thought). After 7 years of marriage and 2 years of Prozac & counseling, I chose to venture out on my own.

Now alone in the big city (Jacksonville was big to me then), this small town girl believed she had it all. A great job, great friends and all the night life and attention she ever dreamed of. My preference had since turned from beer to Crown Royal whiskey and opportunities for drug use were presenting themselves frequently. Thankfully I was terrified of the stories I heard about cocaine and crack being so addictive, and I happily stayed with my fermented drug of choice. I had reached my end emotionally and was very depressed. It is nothing short of a miracle that I managed to keep my job, never get a DUI, or kill myself or someone else despite the consistent heavy drinking and driving almost every night and every weekend. Although I never admitted it then, I was a functional alcoholic. Addicted not to the alcohol alone, but also to the club environment and everything that went with it. I sowed a lot of wild oats in the next few years, believing that one day the real Mr. Right would come along and take my depression away.

Well He finally did. I received a mailer for a new church that had just started in a school gymnasium down the road from my home. ( ) The pastor's picture looked like most of the people I partied with every night. It said "Church is fun, Contemporary music, Come as you are." Well this didn't sound like any church I had ever heard of. The only experience I had was traditional, religious and I dreaded it as a child. We were not involved. But none the less, boring, lifeless attendance every Sunday was required. I don't think I ever saw anyone with a Bible. I know I was never told I needed Jesus. His name was mentioned in ritualistic prayers but there was no deeper understanding of anything expressed to me.

So this new place sounded different. VERY DIFFERENT. And by a complete act of God, I attended this tiny new church on January 31, 1999 and met Mr. Right (Jesus Christ) and was radically saved! ( Saved from what? Click here ) I walked out of that church a new creation! I wanted to tell the whole world about Jesus! A fire was ignited inside of me that day and it has continually grown hotter ever since. That was the day I realized I was created for a purpose.

I began to study the Word of God daily and have built a close and personal relationship with the Lord. I began to pursue my Creator and unfold all the days He planned for me. I can't imagine where I'd be today without Jesus... I doubt I'd be alive. He truly is my everything. I will live the rest of my days worshipping Him, fully devoted to His purposes. 


  • On staff at 4 churches: 1 where she received Christ, 2 she helped start and 1 she inherited
  • Developed and led a 30+ singles ministry for 2 years
  • Lived as a "house mother" for homeless, addicted women for 2 years
  • 7+ years of outreach ministry in the inner-city trenches of downtown Atlanta
  • In 2011 graduated from Beulah Heights University with a BA in Biblical Education and a minor in Community Economic Development
  • In 2012 was ordained by  Sword of the Spirit Healing Ministry/House of the Lord
  • In 2013 inherited  Atlanta Outreach Project , a non-religious outreach for the homeless and marginalized
  • In 2014 founded the Radical Infusion School of Inner-Healing & Deliverance
  • In 2014 inherited  The HUB Atlanta  and became the Apostolic Leader & Visionary
  • In 2015 officially incorporated MaryLovesLife Ministries and became a 501(c)3 tax-deductible ministry 
  • In 2017 became a Certified Health Coach to minister to the physical body and prepare people to fulfill their destiny
  • In 2018 began to pursue a Master's Degree in Kingdom Leadership through KLI (Kingdom Leadership Institute)
  • In 2018 was commissioned by Network Ekklessia International (NEI) through Apostle Jacquie Tyre and Dutch Sheets Ministries

Mary is aligned in Kingdom family with these spiritual mothers and fathers: